Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to People:

1. Why do you beat me?
2. I dont care if you hit me, cuss at me or tell me im worthless just dont do it in front of Connor!
3. why cant accept that im not you?
4. stop lying to me!
5. if you keep pushing me around like this ill eventually snap and hurt someone. and im close.
6. stop touching me.
7. shut up and look at what youve done to us! this is youre fault
8. I DONT CARE ANYMORE! I JUST WANT TO DIE!
9. you guys are the only reason im not dead.
10. just because i dont say anything doesnt mean you cant take my stuff.


Nine things about myself:

1. im most likely bi-polar (it runs in my family and ive got symptoms)
2. i have scars all over most of my body
3. my mom beats me sometimes, sometimes to the point im bleeding badly. she never notices
4. if i dont talk around you it means i dont like you or that you have been mean to me some point in time, regardless of how long ago
5. i can sing, and i like to, but not around others.
6. if i could have a super power, i would want to be able to fly or heal instantly
7. i cant sleep very well at night. only 2-3 hours normally
8. i still have nightmares.
9. i was sexually abused when i was little. i cant remember most of it

Eight ways to win my heart:

1. Listen to me
2. dont try to touch me.
3. like anime
4. dont care about my scars
5. like me for who i am
6. support me
7. dont expect me to call you every day
8. dont be stupid.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

1. peanuts.
2. ow.
3. i wish i wasnt -insert word and/or phrase here-...
4. im bored
5. i should really write something in the Rp...
6. i wonder if mom will let me bake some cookies
7. i wish they would go away.

Six things I do before I fall asleep:

1. put on pjs
2. put away dinner
3. read
4. get into bed
5. read some more
6. stare at the ceiling

Five places I want to visit:

1. Japan
2. Germany
3. my grandmas (lol)
4. idk
5. idk

Four things I'm wearing right now:

1. long sleeve shirt
2. pants
3. hair bow
4. headphones

Three bands that I listen to often:

1. Three Days Grace
2. Vocaloid
3. thousand Foot Krutch

Two things I want to do before I die:

1. learn Japanese
2. prove to my mom that im not worthless

One confession:

If it werent for my friends and little brother i would have committed suicide long ago